A week and some change after the fact

I think it's been a week now? Hasn't it? Well regardless, it's has been a very different experience for me this whole time around. Maybe it's the whole, "two brain surgeries in 6 months" ordeal, but i feel totally different right now. For the first week after surgery, I LITERALLY didn't do anything. I think I woke up occasionally, moved around a little, then passed back out. Wasn't very fun. Nor did it really engender any important meanings into my life at the time. Now for the last few days, I've been up more, although not a whole lot, and just kind of meandering a bit. Thankfully, I 've been eating more since that whole episode was a bit uncomfortable to watch, but I think it's over now. Now I just have to get back to working out, living like a usual person, and learning how to kick some cancer butt.

I started taking Melatonin the other night. Wow. It really hits you hard, too. I haven't had this low energy for some time now, but it's really supposed to be useful in some form or other, so I don't really have a choice about whether or not to take it. Here goes to days on extremely high doses of low wakefulness.

So as of right now, I'm looking into doing a treatment camp at Upitt for a year or so then also maybe Germany/Mexico, too. I'm not sure which one's will actually turn out, though. The only thing that may work for me is the standard chemo/radiation which I'm not one for at the moment, but we all saw what just happened, so I can't really go on to NOT do anything right now. I gotta keep hitting it hard with everything I've got right now.

And so, for all of you lovely folks out there, I will keep up with you. I just need a few more days to get life back into some kind of recognizable role here. Of course, I appreciate all your care as well. Talk soon.